I’m Doomed to Get It

2 01 2015

Stomach virus that is. Since my sister, who never vomits, got hit with stomach flu last week, I’ve been overly paranoid that I will get it too.

So now, for the third time in about a month, i’m sitting outside freezing in 30 degree temperature panicking while sucking on a piece of ginger.

My stomach feels like crap. Out of nowhere the stomach cramps hit me and I ran to the bathroom with diarrhea. I know- too much information but if you are emetophobjc like me, you understand.  The fresh air outdoors usually calms me but for now, until my stomach feels better I don’t think I’ll calm down very much.

And after so many years of feeling really good, not letting it control my life, I’ve had three emetophobic attacks in one month.  So I’m now resorting to my irrational thinking and counting how many hours since I last ate.

Emetophobia sucks!


Here We Go Again

25 12 2014

For the second time in a month I’ve had an Emetophobic panic attack.  I’ve been under a lot of financial stress and worry and it doesn’t surprise me that the emetophobia is working it’s way back into my life.

Here’s the situation.  My sister who live 20 minutes away from me just caught a stomach virus from her daughter.  She hasn’t vomited in 18 years and that was due to morning sickness from her oldest born.  So up until now, she has never got a stomach virus or one that made her vomit until now.  And during those 10 years, she raised two kids that got them often.

I’ve had no contact with her nor have I been to her house since last Sunday but I’m still panicking.  That’s the amazing part about being phobic.  Panic and fear come from irrational thoughts.  Thoughts even I know are not true but still are making me panic.

An Emetophobia Setback

5 12 2014

When my posts on this subject are few and far between that’s actually a good thing.  It means I’m dealing with my Emetophobia and don’t feel a need to write or research on the subject.  But I poke around here from time to time because of setbacks I have.  Right now, I’m having one.

If you read through my entire blog, I’ve mentioned that while I have always had a fear of vomiting, most of my life up until my late 30s was never altered or overrun by it.  I avoided certain things like roller coaster and over drinking alcohol but never stopped going out or was obsessive with hand washing or even so fearful of catching norovirus (stomach flu).

So right now in Pennsylvania it’s around 40 degrees and I’m sitting outside on my balcony in my pjs and bundled up in a heavy blanket and robe to get some fresh air.  Why?  Because that’s what is helping me calm down from this sudden, unusual emetophobic induced panic attack.

I felt physically fine and suddenly a strong taste of vomit was in my mouth.  No burping or upset stomach.  Just the taste and as that never happened to me before, I started shaking, shivering and panicking.  Haven’t an emetophobic attack in a very long time.

I’m noticing a pattern.  Most of my worst emetophobic attacks have occurred  this time of year.  November and December.  And while It’s not the stress of the holidays causing it either because I love them.  It’s the change of temperature ( I’m a warm weather person and hate the cold) and the darkness.  I love running and doing outdoorsy things such as running, walking in the park and attending outdoor evening concerts at local farms and community grounds.  This is something a SAD (Seasonal Affective Disorder) lamp would not help me with.

Another pattern I’m noticing is that every time I’ve had a setback, it was a time of deep stress for me.  Right now I’m very worried about my employment and finances.  Last time it was the same issue.

I don’t think anyone ever fully rids themselves of emetophobia but I do believe it’s controllable.  Sometimes setbacks happen but tomorrow I’ll be back to my normal self…until the next time.

It’s Been A While

28 07 2014

It’s a few months shy of two years since I last posted anything on this blog and there’s a very good reason for that. My emetophobia has been somewhat under control. It didn’t go away but for the most part the past few years I haven’t let it control my life.

With just a few incidences of panicky situations, I’ve been feeling pretty good since my last post.

I recently started seeing a therapist but not for emetophobia. At least not directly. If you read through my old posts you’ll see that my case of emetophobia was triggered by stress. Even though the emetophobia calmed down (it never completely went away), I still had stress in my life. I’m now working on dealing with stress and depression.

For those of you who are contemplating therapy for emetophobia, I highly recommend it. There are some very good and some not so good therapists out there so if the first therapist you see is not good, don’t give up. Keep looking until you find one that helps you.

I hope my blog continues to help those who are seeking information about emetophobia.

Norovirus Toolkit

28 10 2012

The CDC has posted a very good article on how to prevent the Norovirus stomach flue.  I highly recommend everyone read it at


For those of us who have emetophobia, some of the information in this article may not be what we want to hear but what we need to know.   While the future does see a vaccine, as for now, it is in the testing stage and we have to rely on other ways to stay healthy.

Norovirus is a gastrological disease and cannot be spread by breathing it in.  It is spread by hand to mouth contact and possibly by contaminated food.

Norovirus is a leading cause of disease from contaminated foods in the United States. Foods that are most commonly involved in foodborne norovirus outbreaks include leafy greens (such as lettuce), fresh fruits, and shellfish (such as oysters). However, any food item that is served raw or handled after being cooked can become contaminated with noroviruses.

Be sure to wash fruits and veggies if consumed raw or cook seafood thoroughly.

Keep your kitchen clean and disinfected.  Especially if someone in your household was recently sick with norovirus.

DO NOT, I repeat DO NOT use re-usable grocery bags.  They are the biggest cause of the spread of e-coli, salmonella, and norovirus.

Most important, WASH YOUR HANDS FREQUENTLY with soap and hot water! Especially before eating and after using the bathroom. If you do not have access to soap and water, a hand sanitizer is a good alternative.  Hand sanitizers kill harmful bacterias that could make you sick but there is question as to whether they kill the norovirus so if you have a sick with soap nearby, opt to wash your hands.

Please go to the link above to get more information about norovirus.

The #1 Tool to Avoid Food Poisoning: A Dishwasher

28 12 2011

I found this short by great article on the web this afternoon.  The best way to avoid food poisoning, which includes the norovirus, is by putting everything and anything that is dishwasher safe, through the dishwasher cycle.  This includes sponges.


And since most of us have one, that’s an easy thing to do.



New Report on Norovirus Vaccine

9 12 2011

This is very good news for those of us with Emetophobia, parents of school-age children, and those “cruisers” who hate the constant haggling from the cruise line to use hand-sanitizers everywhere on the ship.

The latest report from Baylor College of Medicine (http://www.chron.com/default/article/Houston-study-hopeful-for-stomach-flu-vaccine-2376862.php) shows a positive break through with the Norovirus Vaccine.

While it won’t be available for another 5-10 years, the study found the vaccine cut the chances of catching the virus by half.  Those who got the virus after the vaccine had less serious symptoms.

Even better for those who are needle-phobic, the vaccine is a powdered form inhaled as a spray.